Keeping Our Heads Above Water - Chapter 13

January 16, 2016

When I was growing up, I remember Mom telling me that there was no pain like childbirth.  That the pain is SO intense that most women will never feel any pain that remotely compares to it.  But the interesting thing about childbirth, she would say, is that a couple hours after giving birth and you are holding that beautiful little bundle in your arms, you will forget how bad the pain actually was.

I've never experienced childbirth.....but I'm guessing I'm at 8 cm and crowning right now.

Flood Waters at Our Door

This week has been the most difficult so far.  Hard to believe after having lived through the first two weeks, but Week 3 is finding me wanting to crawl in a hole and stay for awhile.  I am anxious to get to that place where I have moved past the pain and can look back on this time and forget how painful this all is.

Our Master Bedroom

The other day, I wrote chapter 12 of this journey.  I wrote it, saved it on Blogger and never sent it to you.  I felt it was too negative....and that you would see the hairline cracks in me. 

See, I'm struggling this week with emotions towards people who could have prevented this 8 cm pain I'm feeling.  The builder of our beautiful home whose initials are CC and who I would like to punch in the face.....the realtor for assuring us we would NEVER flood when we purchased the house cause we live on a "constant level lake", of which we don't....the water district for never flood mapping our area to allow us to purchase flood insurance....the list goes on and on.

I'm human.  I'm emotional. 

But sometimes, I'm realizing, the 8 cm pain is necessary.  Necessary to bring me closer and more RELIANT on God.  Cause I personally believe God DOES allow us to go through more than we can handle.....on our own.  If we were never allowed more than we could handle, we would have no need for Him.

And this is one chick who needs Him every second of every hour of every single day right now.